Now I knew

Now I knew how love means to you
You went away and disappeared from my life in a split second
Without giving me the chance to say
What I needed to tell you
For months I kept asking what and where I went wrong
But it keep coming to a dead end
I kept your smile and laughter in my heart to heal my sorrow
I kept looking at your photos to remind myself that you are the one who I love most
I have always love you and till today I still do
But I knew somehow or rather I can't force you
That's how I knew
And now I knew
That is just how you love me

One of my favourites...

HANYA INGIN KAU TAHU

Ku telah miliki
Rasa indahnya perihku
Rasa hancurnya harapku
Kau lepas cintaku

Rasakan abadi
Sekalipun kau mengerti
Sekalipun kau pahami
Ku pikir ku salah mengertimu

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

Ow wooo wo wo wooo

Walaupun semua hanya ada dalam mimpiku
Hanya ada dalam anganku
Melewati hidup

Rasakan abadi
Sekalipun kau mengerti
Sekalipun kau pahami
Ku pikir ku salah mengertimu

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

Clouds

I like to look at the clouds
Especially on a sunny day
With it's different shape and sizes
I just wonder how it is to be a cloud
Moving around giving shade to the all the living things below
Sometimes pouring water onto the earth to keep
All the living things alive and fresh
Giving it a chance to grow

The frangipani tree

I saw the leaves of my frangipani tree today
All fresh and green
After weeks of tending, care and watering
Giving it a fresh batch of fertilizer
It has now grown much better
With it's branches spreading
And the leaves growing broader and greener
It struck me in an instant
How life and love should be
Tending and caring which in time it will grow
Stronger, greater and deeper
Always fresh and forever will be flowering
Such great and a wonderful
Is the work of God
He created something for us to reflect and learn from

Would you ?

Would you still love me
When I am no longer around ?
Would you still think of me
And visit me at my grave
To say hi and tell me how you lived your life without me
Would you still remember those time we spend talking and laughing
Would you still cry like we used to when sometimes we argued about things and we both break down and cry
I can't imagine my life without you as it has been most wonderful
And I can't imagine living without you as it would be as good as losing my soul
And if you ask me what you mean to me
It would be everything that I could ever asked for
As you are everything to me as you are my life and my soul

Helpless, Hopeless

Helpless, hopeless falling in love with you
I just can't hide it
As my heart have always been shouting for your name
That's all I know what to do and it kept me alive
Like a man out on the sea with a life jacket hanging onto his life

When I can't sleep

When I can't sleep,
I am always thinking if you would be doing the same...
Thinking of you and your smile when we are together...
Even when I know that my body is tired...
I am just lying in bed thinking of you and the happiness that's shown on your face...
Always lost in my thoughts when you are far away from me...
But you are always near as I have you in my heart...
Is this how love is meant to be?
If it is then I shall keep it that way
As I am always loving you
For as long as I live...